Conforming to a standard. Usual, typical, or expected. The usual, average, or typical state or condition.
…Since when has anything we’ve done been normal?
I think the most unusual, atypical, and unexpected thing about this whole ordeal is actually how “normal” it really was.
Lilly “the Bird” Anne Clark landed safely at 1:21pm on September 14, 2012. Weighing in at 7lb 15oz and 20in long. A far cry from the 12 pound albatross we were originally expecting. Delivery went just about as perfect as the pregnancy. Though, next time I think I’ll skip the contractions and just get to the cute baby part. But I survived a whole 9 centimeters before hunting down the anesthesiologist and getting an epidural. Within 4 hours of induction, out she pops, does the whole crying thing- so do I (and the rest of the family), Daddy cuts the cord, and within those five minutes my whole world was changed by the most amazing little bird ever.
Usual would be coming home to a calm and quiet house, greeting the unknown with open arms. Typical would be a crying baby and scared parents with no one but Google to solve their problems. Expected would be repetitive diaper changes, sleepless nights, and the feeling that failure might be around every corner.
But normal is just not our style.
We came home to our entire family; greeting us with open arms, leaving the unknown to worry about later. And with full construction on our house complete with saw, drills, and hammers, “calm and quiet” was somewhere between Timbuktu and B.F.E. Google was saved for recipe suggestions and window installation instructions, and all my questions, concerns, and inquiries were directed to my personal live-in nurses; who just happen to be my mom, mother-in-law, and grandmother. The only thing around every corner was someone ready to help out with the diaper changes and swing shifts to insure the chance failure was as slim as our chance as “calm and quiet”.
So now I’m home alone and I keep waiting for the fear to set in, for the unknown to catch up, and the anxiety to get the best of me. But it hasn’t and it won’t. Not because of anything I’ve done, but because of the support system I have at my beckon call. I have a husband who has taken on an extra role of perfect daddy all the while stays in his armor as Prince Charming. The men who became Grandpas who are more than willing to change diapers and wipe away tears. And the two young ladies who completed the circle of life and became Grandmas - they seem to have all the right answers at all the right times. They have all been here to help with whatever we need, right when we need it. I am so blessed. They have given me the strength and encouragement to be the best mom that they have always taught me to be. I love you all! Thank you.